lost light

i could say i remember
when I saw you in sunlight
basked in you filling
my window
with blue

i could say i remember
a time of plenty
of time, of knowing
the quality
of light

i call upon memories
that elude my grasp
in rationed moments dimly lit
the sky
at night

i could say the moon will suffice
but the lamp glares
with an unconsoling heat
the crystal pales
in paltry light